Alright, first off, I've been a little PO'd at watching my page take the proverbial turn towards being a dead page. The last time I added any screengrabs/scans was, oh, a few months ago; probably half a year. The fanart is trickling off, and I just don't feel too happy with this page anymore. There's nothing.. new, and I feel it's going the way of the dodo bird. :/
Recently, I've gotten a ton of work that I need to do for college, English stuff for the main part. I'm behind, and a lot of online problems are piling up on me as well. I doubt I've spent much more than $20 the past month trying to get Scar merchandise anymore. It's there, but by the time I ask to get ahold of it, it's not. I dunno, I'm just getting sick of it I guess. I have money, I have time (for the most part), but I don't have patience waiting for things that more than likely won't happen.
I've taken up smoking in the past week; I've taken up going miles away from my house and sitting peacefully beside the railroad tracks to think guzzling a Double Gulp of Surge. I'm having a nervous breakdown people. It started in English class when I heard of all the stuff we were supposed to have done by December 4th. A 10 page paper written, a hundred and twenty pages written in our English journals (of which I have about 50 or at most 60 done), and I have to revise a paper on top of that somewhere. This, coupled with a lot of other everyday BS that usually doesn't bother me, just, set me off. I've smoked three packs of Menthol cigarettes in the last few days, and, I just can't handle this.
I hadn't thought of taking this page offline during that time, but seeing how everything was old and somewhat stale, I just deleted all the HTML files. I don't like a page that doesn't have at least a single update inside of a week. These are pages that need to just off the internet. Blah. I don't know. I just don't like seeing my page going down the toilet. I feel it is anyway.
So, my page is online once again. I don't like to take it offline, but I was considering pulling out of the internet for good. I still am somewhat because as I heard someone else say "I come on here for fun; to get away from all the sh** that happens to me here in RL." I do that too, and when it's the worse in both worlds, where have you to go? --mike
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